how many have been entitled new year?

why is the new year such a big deal?
why do people create such a big fuss?
fuss over new year's resolutions and so so...

i guess it's because it is an indicatation
it is a loud bang of reminder
that this year you are a year older
that this year you are compelled to be a tad wiser
that at the strike of twelve on the start of the Gregorian calendar cycle
the bombs whistle
the flesh sizzles
& reality settles (although this much much later on, about 4 hours thereon)

so let me be blunt in my mourning period
as i say: see you again soon dreamyfrills
but as for now, so long...
i weep to hinder the gentle winds to blow past me
i grieve to deny the rays of sunlight to shine
i close my eyes to be blinded of the marvelous beauty
i hold my breath long enough to own death that was mine

STOP
just STOP
prithee
why do you torment me?
is thine joy in thy perish?
these memories shant i cherish.

all these i will forget
even without success
as far as the atmosphere can set
universe, once my universe i now detest

won't you die now?
can you please die somehow?
then live again to be something new
this time something useful
this time something unhurting
this time something at all.