ARGHHHHH!!!!!!

F*** it!!!!!
i am just SO GAY!!!!
argh!!!!!
for the past weeks i have been watching QAF
and i admired, appreciated and got honestly turned on by their love scenes
so i presented the same topic to myself again,
am i really gay?

i got my answer AGAIN today, actually tonight.
i was looking through friends' accounts in friendster
saw old femmes turned butch
saw icky looking butches (evil hehehe)
but most of all, i saw yummy butches...
then i realized,
no straight woman
would describe other women with the word yummy
the word was dangling in my head
and without scenes, pictures nor imaginations
i just suddenly got psyched by the mere thought of guy-looking chicks...

Y U M M Y .

i must be gay.
i AM gay.
ARGHHHHH!!!!
GAAAAAYYY

GAY MEN... life changing?

GAY MEN...life changing!
close your eyes and imagine two men caressing each other.
yes it seems like an odd thought
and even when you try hard to imagine it,
it is just hard to picture out.
that coming from someone who is gay as well.
that coming from the lezzie a month ago.
what comes from the lezzie a month later?
gay guy love making is beautiful and passionate.
what happened to give a result of a complete turn around?
C L U B B A B Y L O N
the events along with the place were huge eye openers
not only regarding gay men and their lifestyles
but men in general and how they operate
when they act all insensitive,
when they are innocently insensitive
and when they are brutally insensitive.
but men are not all that bad,
they are actually good
for instances when you don't want a girl around
(which rarely happens ahihihihi)
but how are gay men life changing?
although they have been sort of accepted in to the society
it is only because of their humor & their uniqueness.
however, even if this is so, gay men still try to prove much...
they prove that love is worth standing up for
that having the freedom of choice is good
but using that freedom and actually choosing is better if not great.
they live their lives the way no straight guy can
when they just do what they want to do
without getting concerned of other people's opinions
just as long as they don't intentionally hurt anyone.
in their own way, they silently whisper that:
living your life is worth dying for,
than living a life that is not yours.

why shouldn't that be life changing?
it should change lives
especially those lives that are in constant fear
those lives that are led by a dictating director

start living your life the way gay men do
live it!
they way you want to, the way you have to, the way you should

lumpia & bihon

lumpia and bihon
that's what we are having for lunch...
great i had the sudden urge to skip lunch
well that's kind of mean of me to say
but i'm just not a big fan of them
well at least it goes with the mourning i am through now
mourning for the end of my dvd watching (for now)
for the final season of Queer As Folk (damn it!)
for the yesteryears' glory days
for the forgone party scene
for my past life as Summerette

i was amazed though how the song "Hear Me Out" by frou frou got into QAF
saddened to know that now, everything i like is somehow related to something gay
the song was used during emmet honeycutt's emo moments when Drew Boyd left him.
i so totally felt it
i've liked the song before...
but i have a special fancy for it now.

I'll discuss mor about Queer As Folk later
there is just so much to tell...
for one, i cried a lot more when watching QAF rather than when i was watching TLW.
i guess because that show was just so gay!!!! hahaha
i hated it so much when they did something so gay
and i couldn't even dare to comment silently in my head that
"it was sooooo gay!"
for obvious reasons.
i especially liked the line
"There is no place more gay than Australia, except Disneyland" -Brian Kinney